[It's not like she wants it to be complicated, or wants to feel this way... but maybe he has a point. Maybe she's just overthinking everything.
She takes a few deep breaths, feeling the breeze caress her skin.]
I think you're gonna have to push me a little harder for that.
[She manages to look back at him, forcing a smile, before turning forward and tightening her grip on the rope.
Regardless of how she feels about Jude, she really does like Marui. He's not replacing Jude, and she's not settling for him. That much is becoming clear.
And, feelings aside, maybe she had let herself get too wrapped up in possibly beating a story that was set in stone. Not much could've been done and she did her best to keep Jude safe. She could stand to beat herself up less for that, but the image of him dying next to her...
She squeezes her eyes shut to force the image out. That's going to take a little longer to leave behind. However, she could... possibly accept that it wasn't her fault. That she tried her best with what she had.
Maybe.
She takes in another deep breath and tries to stop her mind from spinning out of control.
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She takes a few deep breaths, feeling the breeze caress her skin.]
I think you're gonna have to push me a little harder for that.
[She manages to look back at him, forcing a smile, before turning forward and tightening her grip on the rope.
Regardless of how she feels about Jude, she really does like Marui. He's not replacing Jude, and she's not settling for him. That much is becoming clear.
And, feelings aside, maybe she had let herself get too wrapped up in possibly beating a story that was set in stone. Not much could've been done and she did her best to keep Jude safe. She could stand to beat herself up less for that, but the image of him dying next to her...
She squeezes her eyes shut to force the image out. That's going to take a little longer to leave behind. However, she could... possibly accept that it wasn't her fault. That she tried her best with what she had.
Maybe.
She takes in another deep breath and tries to stop her mind from spinning out of control.
Just. Breathe.]